Panic Attack

Last night I suffered an anxiety/panic attack over the upcoming exam. I saw it coming in the afternoon already, but tried to ignore it – not that ignoring the early signs did much good. Around 1 o’ clock in the morning I started crying and woke up my boyfriend, who tried calming me down and get me to sleep. When I finally drifted off, I had very unpleasant dreams and woke rather early, being completely cramped – my left hand was so tightly clenched that I had to open my fingers with the other hand.
I’ve also had increasing cognitive problems over the last days, with the ability to memorize going downhill really fast, word-finding problems and slowed speech. All very familiar symptoms, but it is scary how fast they can come back once I am really stressed out. So I emailed my therapist about this and he wrote back that the panic attack is enough for him to give me a doctor’s note which will allow me to not participate in tomorrow’s exam, so that unlike on Tuesday I won’t lose one of the precious three attempts. I see him briefly tomorrow morning, and for Monday I had a regular appointment scheduled anyway.

I think I probably overestimated my mental capacities and, trying to cram as many facts into my head as possible, eventually buckled under the pressure. I guess I should only have registered for two exams in the first place…

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