Getting Ready For The Psychiatrist

Tomorrow is my appointment with the psychiatrist. I have a vague idea of what to expect, based on the psychological examinations at the hospital and internet research, and I’m quite used to recounting my history with depression. Hopefully, he will accept that physical reasons behind the depression have been excluded two years ago; I have documentation on the lab tests of my blood, but not on the ECG, for example – that’s still in my file at the hospital. I just don’t want to go through all of this again only to come to the same conclusion… Other than that, I’m open for any kind of neurological or psychiatric test he might want to perform.

I’ve been thinking about what I’m going to tell him. My top priorities are the lack of energy and the cognitive deficits; if we manage to do something about those two “symptom clusters” with tolerable side effects, I’ll call it a success. It might sound odd to some readers, but medicating the sadness away is not very important to me, because I feel that there is a reason when I am sad – even if I am not immediately aware of it. I just want to reach a state where I am able to deal with those reasons sufficiently.
I also hope I can skip the citalopram this time around. Here in Germany, it’s the most widely prescribed antidepressant, and usually the first antidepressant you will get prescribed. While it helped me in some regards, I feel that in my current state the side effects would outweigh the use I got out of it. Not to mention that it made me extremely sleepy in the beginning, which is certainly not what I am looking for currently.

Well, tomorrow I will know more.

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