And I do mean bad: not-sleeping-until-5-AM-and-crying-after-waking-up-bad. I have been talking to my therapist about starting antidepressants again; even though he is also a psychiatrist, he must not treat me as such because legally therapy is “aftercare” for the clinical trial I was part of, and he is only allowed to see me as a CBASP therapist. With the kind of health insurance I have, I cannot see him as a regular patient, and I don’t have the money to cross over to his regular patient pool.
He said the antidepressants will not be able to replace the psychotherapeutic work (which I did not mean to do anyway), but might be able to aid it. He also recommended a psychiatrist to me, which makes things a lot easier as I do not have to do research and worry about whether I made a good choice or not.
Lugubrious Layara 